Thursday, April 27, 2017

MY LOVE FOR TUDUNGPEOPLE.



Wearing hijab since I was little, I am thankful to Allah SWT for making my hijab journey at ease. I know that there are many Muslim ladies out there who still find it hard to cover their hair (i.e. cover their awrah). Speaking of my experience, I started to cover my awrah PROPERLY back in 2012-2013. Even so, I am still not perfect. There was once or two that I did not wear my socks when I go out, but later I will force myself to wear it because I do feel that something is not right. I feel like my toes are ‘naked’, if you know what I mean.

I didn’t remember how, or what makes me wanna cover my awrah PROPERLY. However I do remember the times when I slowly gather my strength to wear a long-wide shawl. Yes, I started by wearing a long shawl first. From a S-sized, I am now wearing a L-sized shawl, or perhaps reaching XL now. Best part of all, I did it all ALONE. Nobody supported me, or encourage me to wear it.




I MADE IT. ALHAMDULILLAH.




While some ladies can pull off wearing Bawal, let me tell you straight that I am soooo into shawls since as long as I can remember. Trust me when I say that I do not have any Bawal collection in my closet. I was once stumbled upon a quote that saying 90% person of man like a girl wearing Bawal.



Is that so?
If so then I am happy for being that 10%
Most part of all, I am happier that my husband doesn’t care as long as I am wearing a covered hijab.



Lol.




I may be the last person on earth to know this, but I am so in love with TudungPeople right now! I started by purchasing two shawls (printed one) when they are launching their new boutique at Bangi Sentral. When was that? I think back in 2015. That was during the Eid 2015 collection, hence they do not release this collection after that.

And guess what? I have been wearing those two shawls like crazy, to the extent that it feels like it is the only shawls that I have (when literally I have like plenty of shawls collection)

(image properties by TudungPeople.com. I do not own this photo)

My earliest TP collection. Love it to death!



Back in the days when I used to make an OOTDs and selfies.


Last year I re-purchased a new shawl again from TudungPeople for my wedding reception. I was truly disappointed when the wedding planner provided me with a very short, small shawls. The first boutique that came across my mind at that time was TudungPeople. It didn’t take that long for me to choose since I knew their quality and top-notch workmanship. I chose Afreen in An Ice Berry (too bad they aren’t release this range anymore)

(image properties by TudungPeople.com. I do not own this photo)





My wedding reception. 



After the wedding.
Definitely not a waste at all since I can wear it again for countless times!
Plus the colour is wearable too.




Recently I have been eyeing for Maysaa Satin Silk. I am very particular when it comes to the opacity of the shawls but Maysaa is a top-notch! My first Maysaa collection was in a Nude color and I love it so muchhh. I don’t have to worry about the opacity of this range regardless of what color it is. The best part of TudungPeople is they provide you with an M and L size. My choice would definitely have to be L!


I just love everything about TudungPeople. Simple, classic, and minimalists. Best part of all, it doesn't see-thru like any other brands out there. Affordable too. They do have other range such as Hawa, NLuxe, Safaa, Numa Chiffon, Arraynaa Diamat (omg I love this one) etc. I might as well someday go to their store and check out those materials again.




Question of the day:
Will I purchase their LE (Limited Edition) collection?
I’d love to but… not now.
My ASB account need my money more than just a piece of scarves lol.




To the ladies out there who are still not covering their awrah (YET), I pray to Allah SWT to make an ease of your journey. Everybody has their own struggle. This might not be my struggle, but I do have my own too. My advice may as cliche as it sounds, but please do it for the sake of Allah SWT. I cannot stress to you how 'comfortable' and 'protected' I am, despite I am fully 'covered'.


Living in a Muslim country like Malaysia, I think most people take for granted by not realizing how blessed we actually are, to wear our hijab in freedom. I've read many stories about our sisters out there whom find it a struggle to wear their hijab, which is not supposed to happen.



It's the effort that counts, Allah sees your effort.
And that's all matters. 












Tuesday, April 11, 2017

LEAVING IS HARD.


You know what is the greatest love of all after Allah SWT and Prophet Rasulullah SAW (May peace be upon him)?



Families.



I am aware that not all are blessed with a complete family. Some loss their parents at a very young age, whilst some parents are divorced and never met their kids since then. As for my family, we are definitely not perfect. We have flaws but nevertheless, we are thankful. We are not happy all the time, yet we count our blessing instead. For that I thank you, ALLAH…

We started with a group of five. Last year alone, we are fortunate to have two new additions in the family; my husband and soon-to-be BIL. I am delighted to see all of them are getting well together. We are small, but we are definitely happy together. Alhamdulillah.



Due to that, leaving is hard.



My husband and I is leaving the house that we were currently stayed in. While most people will ask why, I have to clarify that there is nothing wrong between us and them. I was more than happy to stay with my family. Trust me when I say that I didn’t see this coming, but I take it as the time has come.

I knew that I was gonna cry. So did my mum. I just couldn’t help my tears from falling as I leave my room. The room that I literally spent most of my time, from the time I was still in school, uni days, and now I am married. Lots of memories indeed. But I guess that’s part of life; you have to get out from the comfort zone and taste the bittersweet experience of responsibility and commitment.

I gotta be honest the feeling is just the same as when I was in my uni days; where I used to have a homesick kind of syndrome. I graduated in 2014, and since then I stayed with my family while most of my friends were renting and stay together with their friends. Even when they are married, they aren’t as awkward as I am since they are already used to living apart from their family. I guess this month and the next few months is going to be adapting myself to a new environment.



It feels good, yet it takes courage and patience.



It ain’t easy, but we believe that we are gonna get through this together inshaa Allah.



It is true when they say that the first few years of marriage is going to be adapting and ‘getting to know about each other’ kind of stage. There are many things that my husband and I do not know about each other; YET. Now that we are staying together (just the two of us), I guess the true colour will reveal anytime soon. Okay not to sound creepy or anything, but you get my point. My husband can be a very particular guy, while I can be a bit clumsy at times. Doesn’t it sound like we are perfectly matched?


LOL.



Noticing all in RED? As requested by me lol.
Our last day before we‘re off to our new home. Cried after the dins, as expected. Sorry for being over dramatic. T______T

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

I just found out that she is diagnosed with cancer.


Yesterday was just like any other day, I scrolled my Instagram in between my working hours until I feel like I was missing something.


Her.


It’s been quite some time since I saw her posted photos on her Instagram. She used to post photos of her doing OOTD, or just chilling out with her friends. Not only that, she is good in doing flatlays as well. She was one of my favourite blogger over the past 9 years.

I went into her Instagram right away. Her last post was months ago with a Quran ayah that says “I am near”. I read through the comments. Most of the comments are saying her to “be strong, stay positive” -- you know that kind of spiritual motivations. Then I went into her blog.



My confusion has been answered. Her blog basically explains her silence. Just everything about her.


I just found out that she is diagnosed with cancer.


I do not know her personally, but I met her once in 2011, I think. She is definitely the sweetest, humble and down to earth person one could ever meet. I still remember the first time when I saw her, she was in black top and pants. Basically all plain BLACK from top to bottom. Minimal makeup, yet still enhance her true beauty. I was in a “girl crush” mode and I just couldn’t help myself to say it to her:-


“Oh my God, finally I get to see you! I love your blog so much”
“Oh thank you so much. But please I am just a nobody” *laugh*


We took a picture together but too bad I didn’t keep that photo with me. 
*sigh*


Receiving this shocking news is just the same feeling as your best friends is having cancer. Not that I am wishing any of my friends to have one, but it is still shattering to know that even from a stranger. Life is indeed uncertain. You never know what is happening tomorrow, next week, or even next year. Just like the moment I received the news of my little brother’s friend whom just passed away due to motorcycle accident. He was just 20! Same age as my brother. I saw his photo. He seems sweet and kind, I believe he was. I do not know you kid, but you really remind me of my little brother. May Allah SWT bless your soul my dear. Inshaa Allah you will be and meet your parents in Jannah.

I heard he was the eldest in family. I just couldn’t imagine what and how his parents are going through this hard times. Allahu, I am literally sebak when typing this.


How we take our life for granted.


Cancer can just happen to anybody, you see. NO, any diseases. Be it you eat healthily or not, or you go to the gym or not. You cannot predict it. It just happens. But one thing for sure, there is a reason why there are some people who are ‘selected’ to experience this. As for Shea (yes that’s her name), she is always gonna be my inspiration since the first day I read her blog. Back then she used to be my fashion inspiration, but now she inspires me and other people on how she bears with the pain.


Too bad I only knew about this after months.


Oh Shea, how strong you are.
To the people who experience huge diseases, how Allah loves all of you so much.


For the past few weeks, I have been receiving bad news about people around me getting sick, some loss their family member, whilst some are struggling to be alive. Mashaallah, how we take our HEALTH for nothing. I am truly sad to hear that, which makes me feeling blessed and grateful in return. I am not rich, yet I have everything one could ask for. I have people around me that I love, that I cherish and treasure every day. I have my family, in-laws, and friends. I do not have many friends, but one thing for sure I have friends WHO STAYS. I am aware that I am not a good friends, yet they are STILL THERE because they sees the good in me. We forgive and forget. We pray for each other. We always remember our friends despite our commitment to our spouse and work. For that I am truly thankful.

Oh yes to my surprise, Shea was my husband’s friend back in secondary school days. They were classmates for 3 years and my husband said that her English was excellent. Okay that explains why I love her blog so much. If you are keen to know more about her, or just basically how she informed about her diseases you may click below:


SHEA RASOL )


Thank you Shea. I learnt alot from your blog. You taught us to be strong, to believe in Allah and put our trust to the ONE AND ONLY; Our Creator. We all belong to HIM, and to HIM we shall return. There is always a cure and it's not impossible to dream and hoping that you will be healthy again. Our prayers with you, Shea. 





Monday, July 21, 2014

MY EVERYDAY DU'A ROUTINE


In the name of Allah, the most gracious the most merciful.


Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Here we are peeps; 10 malam terakhir! As much as we do not want Ramadhan to end (well it's going to end sooner or later anyways), let's make as much good deeds as possible shall we?! If we can stay up watching World Cup or studying for finals, why makes you think you can't do it for just for the rest 10 days of Ramadhan? Right?

RIGHT!

SubhanAllah, I feel such an oldie now. When I was a kid, all I can think of was the excitement of Syawal. I was so excited for Syawal, but everything has changed now. Ramadhan is INDEED wayyyy more exciting than Syawal! 

Okay back to the topic.


I have to admit that I was pretty bad when it comes to making du'a (doa; that's what us Malaysian always said). After I finished my prayer, I just simply raised my hand and started to make a random du'a (usually in arabic, in which I don't understand a single word). Worst part, it was not even a 2 minute du'a. Probably even less than that.

Sigh. I was so disappointing with myself.


Lo behold, I grabbed my phone and started to make a note to things that I should make a du'a in every prayer. Or I called it as 'MY EVERYDAY DU'A ROUTINE' (funny enough it sounds like a makeup tutorial thing LOL). Here's my dua that I would like to share with all of you. Hopefully it inspires you to make a dua for yourself too :)



1) ALWAYS START WITH YOU AND ALLAH
It's all about you and Allah. Allah is the MOST FORGIVING, so seek for HIS forgiveness. There is no boundaries between you and HIM. So, seek everything that you want. Express them.


2) DU'A FOR YOUR PARENTS 
Never ever skip this dua even after they are no longer in this world. Remember there's a saying? 


“apabila mati seseorang anak adam itu, maka akan terhenti segala amalanya kecuali 3 perkara iaitu sedakah jariah, ilmu yang memberi guna, DOA ANAK-ANAK YANG SOLEH”


As for myself, I have always pray that:
- They are in good health
- Constant happiness
- Grant them a long live (umur yang panjang)
- Have mercy on them as they had mercy upon me when I was small (the usual arabic dua)
- Express how thankful I am for having such a loving parents (I would normally started to burst into tears on this part, thinking of what they have done to raise me up)


3) DU'A FOR ANYBODY ELSE
It could be your husband/wife, children (if you are married), in laws, siblings, friends etc. If do you love them, take some time to make du'a for them. It won't hurt. I still remember that there's a saying that the angels (malaikat) will pray on behalf of us too. Masha Allah, malaikat pray for us? Isn't that wonderful?


4) A GOOD ENDING (Mati dalam keadaan yang baik)
Like any other muslim, I want to die in a good and easy way. It's hard for me to say this, but nobody wants to die like, a car accident or something like that. Let's pray to Allah that may we end up our lives safe and sound. 


5) AVOID FROM THE FIRE OF HELL (Dijauhi azab api neraka/kubur)
I don't deserve a heaven, nor I want to be in hell as well. This is the part where most of the time that I couldn't hold my tears any longer. If only we get to see what we will be in grave/hell, I would probably shaking to death. May Allah forgive us for our sins. O Allah, YOU love to forgive. For that please forgive us.


6) DU'A FOR MY FUTURE ZAUJ
I separate this from number #3 because, of course I want to make him special as he will be my other half sooner or later (cewah jiwangs noks). I am not a good girl (yet), but I am trying to be one. I'm hoping as he is in the state of improving himself too. I have no idea who he is (yet!) but I always believe that he is the best for me. We'll be get this life thru together honey. Okay that's it you get the idea :P #FACEPALM



7) PRAY FOR GAZA! PRAY FOR ISLAM. PRAY FOR MY BELOVED COUNTRY
Somehow it's devastating to think that all I can do for my brothers and sisters there is just... DU'A. This world is no longer a safe place to live in. O Allah, YOU know what's the best. YOU know everything. Please have mercy on them. Grant them the highest place in Jannah.


As for my country, we are being tested as well. Don't forget to pray for Malaysia too. 




I guess that's pretty much it. Thanks for reading and please let me know what du'a that you make. I might be overlooking and who knows that I might add your du'a in mine too ;)



My dear brothers and sisters of Islam, never stop du'a. JUST DON'T STOP.